Well, the good news is that I’ve been keeping up with these daily blog posts. While they’re not great, they’re not bad. And, more importantly, they’re being completed. So, yay me!
Also good news is that, the more I do these, the more I’m realizing what my limits are as a daily writer. I’m discovering which times of the day/week I’m more successful and which times it’s pretty much pointless pretending I’m going to write. After work is one of those times. No matter what I do, I can’t help but just grind to an unproductive halt when I get home. It’s rough because I don’t want to get up any earlier in the morning to write (I’m already up at quarter to six and that time is for my Morning Pages a la “The Artist’s Way”) and I don’t like writing these right before bed – like I’m doing tonight, and like I did that last few nights – because it gets my mind going and that’s the last thing I need before shutting the lights off.
I just don’t know what to do. If I try to nap when I get home, I’m out for an hour or 2 and it throws off my sleep schedule. If I have a lot of coffee after work, my brain wakes up but my body is still sapped of energy. No matter what I do, I lose 2 or 3 hours after work because I shouldn’t sleep but can’t find the energy to be productive. I suppose I could watch TV but that feels like I’m giving up on being creative. I don’t know.
I’m hoping that these post-work slumps are only so bad right now because I’m getting over whatever I had the past week but I worry that this is just how it’s going to be from now on. I’m just going to be worthless for a few hours after work, 4 or 5 days a week.
Maybe that’s not a bad thing?